Tap into the spiritual, the goodness. (I’m an optimist, it is there, it is omnipotent, eternal). It is hard to know what to be mad at. I had to guess. I could reasonably assume, I convinced myself, yet it is all a game, a very real game, an experiment. Over the years I’ve learned, learning is natural desensitization. It’s a classification system on a quantum level, but Earthy and in tune with being human. Like the most relevant calculations of light: “in a vacuum”; an isolated system. There is no purpose to what follows, entertainment or just my coping mechanism. Rambling like the House of Leaves or An Eternal Golden Braid, I suppose. Maybe an inner need to sharpen my intellect, to make sense. Maybe some primal instinct to attract a mate from exercising my higher facilities. All of the above perhaps. Perhaps purpose will evolve.

They are monsters, or perhaps animals. But realistically I know, just humans like you and me. I understand how it works, maybe some may say privilege, a bias, maybe some say I am the privileged one. How can I describe it? It’s a smorgasbord of chaos. I’ve gotten to know certain repetitions. I have insight. It is not the same persons, yet it is. There is reasoning and sound logic involved, not with the wrongness though, that is a hands-off tragedy, a lack of empathy and accountability. How can you not care if you know? Ignorance is bliss. A coordinated free for all dance of the ancient in all of us. Is this not what life is?

At least I feel. Something I don’t take for granted. I cannot say that I know exactly what I want to know. It is a paradigm shift, our modern day. “They” count on “us” not knowing. I know though.

I want to be sweet. I want to be nice. I want you to be happy and feel loved and respected and important. It is the badness I am angry with, whoever that is. Some of it is good, goodness that just doesn’t understand.

I pray and imagine that any ripplewave effect or even direct effect of my sentiment NEVER wrongs anyone. I pray. I’ve set safety mechanisms, I’ve created safety mechanisms. Safety of and from the intellect.

It is so impressive, the scale and precision, yet I am overwhelmingly disappointed that such a “system” could let wrongs happen.

Emotions are natural, how do you express them without infringing on anyone and without infringing on yourself? That is what is not reason. I sincerely apologize.

In some sense, it is a dissolution of the self. The layers of the person may be a reflection (or not) from an infinite number of factors. Our person recorded and interpreted through any lens and manifested from an infinite number of angles. The capturing and recording, and most impressively replicating forward from those past captures. It is simple because the human being is an animal, a fallible organism. Malleable. We want to feel like we are above it all. Can we choose to be? I propose such a question very seriously. Can we choose, with our freewill, to live with ONLY our natural freewill? That surely is possible. How could we make this happen, actually? What steps will need to be taken? What objectives will need to be completed?

To understand it you have to zoom outward and look at the human organism from outer space. Then you acknowledge the basic technologies used. Then you can see the circus or great symphony for what it is.

The impression of our persons to that which is beyond ourselves. The core of our actual selves.

There is goodness in everyone and we are all unique. I’d argue we are all special, too.

I wonder about how humans are quantified to objects or lower or higher lifeforms. It is not necessarily an insult. In fact, I imagine that doing so is fun. “You are like the fictional character in this movie”, and then you get a figurine of that character. But you know it goes further into much more detail. The specific habit of the Pteronarcys in winter correlates with her actions every winter. We throw in (to the equation) differing timescales and you see how such quantification occurs. My argument is that: sure, it’s fun to quantify, yet let it just be that. It should not insult or injure. It takes a high degree of self control, sometimes, to refrain from poking fun at someone, especially if that person feels insult or injury. It takes practicality, and reason I say.

The rules of nature are there, in every timescale. I imagine a baby who is learning how to talk say “OUCHEY! THAT HURT HIM, YOU ARE BAD!” when someone hurts or violates another. It is basic reason and sanity to recognize that we should be kind to each other. You cannot find too many reasons to justify hurting someone when that person doesn’t want to be hurt (which is most of us, always).

Humans are dynamic and need to express.

Characterizing inert objects with human qualities. Is this progressing forward? The pothos plant. The new item from the store. The hierarchal dynamic to satiate and satisfy our fragile egos that bends further and more of an angle when picking something up, when doing fieldwork, when reaching for that window down button, when reaching for that receipt of the new purchase. Bend with your legs, bend with your legs good sir.

Tap, stap, stap, stop, and think about it, tap tap tap on a window there, tap tap tap on the drums, tap tap tap on the table, tap tap tap firearm discharges somewhere else, the refusal to drink tap water, tap tap tap fireworks in the sky, tap tap tapdancer, tapcon brand name self tappers, tap tap tap, and the nanoseconds between such coincidental quantum connected events, will you acknowledge the connection is there? “There isn’t any connection YOU BAFOON!”, “Yes there is, yes there is, and it is global”.

It is the great humbling of our egos.

We try to avert being who we don’t want to be, yet you ARE who I say you are because I am biased and of more influence than you good sir bafoon. (*Sarcasm / humor)

The absolute positive productive purity goodness extreme optimism sees and know no wrongs I am holier than thou supremity! It is not stealing, that is mine and always has been! (*Sarcasm / humor) I think it turns into a dynamic of: I am whiter, holier, more sinless, better, more good and have more of a right than you to commit that crime. Yet sanity and reason tells us that is incorrect thinking and reasoning. That action is wrong, period. We are all special, unique beings and we all deserve to live happy lives and we all deserve kindness.

Humbling is good for our psyche but not from a false provocation. That is fake. We like real. The inspiration is there. Break out of your shells. Go talk to the poor homeless beggar. You will find a connection. Ask them their story, you will see that you are him. Do so from your own effort of freewill. Break out of your sensitive fragile ego shell. Go look at yourself nodding out, incoherent, insane with feces and defecation, in the poorest part of town. Go look the beggar on the median in the eyes and feel empathy, you will realize that is you. Then the greatest commandment of all charity is of value to you more than you have imagined before. Give and give and give and give and give and give. Feel real empathy. It hurts, that is you, that is what you love, you are an equal to that person. Give some love, through empathy is possible. Give what you can to the person who has nothing. It is you, you are looking in a mirror. Earth is isolated, the human species is isolated. That is you, begging, with nothing, that is you, an addict, a poor homeless addict, your equal, that is you. There is no one above it.

Be kind. There is no other law. (There really are, but kindness is most important).

I am led to believe that the purpose of the Third Amendment of the Bill of Rights in the United States Constitution is there to help the citizen out from what is foreign to the citizen. So the government agent, the military officer, the policeman whom has a burden of torture, abuse, unjustified homicides on their person is not allowed to “get in” to the citizen or the citizen’s property because those wrongs or atrocities carry over and remain on that person. That is why the citizen does not have to house the soldier or the government agents. That is the separation of public vs. private and that is the relevance of private. Private does not want to be burdened with the burdens of the public or government such as their crimes / wrongs. It carries over with interaction.

With the seminal influence system, (whether that is purveyed through the semantic web system or not) we do not want in our persons, however manifested, the influence of killers, rapists, abusers, torturers, pedophiles, people who drug people, people who want to enslave people, etc… Even more-so we don’t want to participate in such a seminal influence system, culture, or any of it’s technological supports. My guess is that such “quantifications” and “labelling” of humans is in the area of DNA, not rare circumstances or mistakes, almost something like our core or ancient selves. Probably not in human imposed RNA messages in our DNA either… In other words, not subject to opinion, findings of secret (illegal) courts, biased corporate sponsorship, etcetera, but: this person is a natural serial killer. That is who he is, not someone who in panic or adolescent wandering accidentally killed someone…

We will address rape later on in this writing, yet I hypothesize that is what the Third Amendment may have been thinking of. There needs to be separation of military, of police, soldiers, government, and the private civilian domain. I’d say also that rape seemed to be a problem in Britain, my guess is rape from the royalty to the field workers. I have a hunch that the Nordic Aryan cultures, too, dealt with a hierarchal “royalty” / “entitlement” rape system as well – possibly what influenced the British. Coping with wrongs against myself, I jokingly made a “standardized bend-age angle / degree-to-rape-ratio” artwork… (once the spine bends to 45 degrees, etcetera…) only to realize when bending to reach for my receipt, that such an atrocious sentiment and possibly standardization (was already in place (bad time)… so the monitoring of our persons is surely pervasive and an infringement of our right to a secure person. Whenever the fieldworker bends down he/she/it doesn’t want to be wronged. My guess is that in our modern day, and perhaps it has always had something to do with seminal influence and possibly the “semantic web” gone wrong. That is where we would like the separation of government powers and the individual citizen. The Third Amendment is relevant because we Americans believe rape is a crime, an atrocious crime equitable to unjustified homicide. There is that separation in our system, Nation, Laws, and that is some of the beauty of America.

Committing any crime based on a perceived leverage material (a crime, a video, a sin, etcetera) is definitively extortion. Two counts of extortion, you would then qualify as a racketeer. Rape is a crime and the foreign influence. Unfortunately it seems foreign systems are in place supporting the perpetrators of such atrocities. This is beyond he awareness of most ordinary folks like me. It is a battle at a quantum, global, mega-organizational level. The core battle will be and is ideological / educational.

Those purveying such atrocities technically qualify as racketeers under foreign influence (essentially spy extortionists of our sins, crimes, etc…) whom operate outside of a fair and speedy trial, our presumption of innocence, and relevant statutes of limitations.

Anything is possible, would you like to see, to know? Let them sign it and it shall be: Ego of the EXTREME masculine superiority military brute persona with a burden of torture and murder on his soul OBLITERATED, DISSOLVED, ANNHIALATED leaving only the sweetest child-like innocent. Remnants of only love and kindness that he finds in mercy given to him, free, from a stranger. The mirror of him, replayed until there is only innocent kindness left in him, aggression washed out, bled out. The mirror of him and who he is. No violations ever occur, ever ever again, only sweet gentle kindness, eternally.

Home: Let us not look back. The place to marinate in is the goodness. Do you think I am joking? Do you not take a little man like me serious? The good Rabbi, Priests, Holy Men and Women and Others diving, throwing themselves in, marinating, stewing in the sacred words of books. You can find such sacredness online. Books, words, written. You can spend lifetimes reading. You will find gems worth preserving and passing. That is where we want to be. Marinating in the words and worlds of sacred holiness. You can spend lifetimes studying. Marinating. Marinating. That is where we would like to be. Please let us go there and never look back. Spend years dissecting, analyzing, marinating, reading over and over and over and over, looking at the words, at the letters, at the shape of letters, let us do nothing else, contemplating the concepts, contemplating the words and ideas, discussing, marinating, stewing. That is where we want to be. That is our home close to G-d. It is in the Holy books. The holy words and concepts worth discussing. Forget the rest of the world. Forget worldliness. Forget it all and study and marinate and stew and simmer to a potency. Find those gems worth preserving. Find the gems and stir the gems. Write the gems, tell the gems, Bring the gems out of hiding. Show the gems to the world. Let them enliven you. With your full complete attention and enthusiasm. This is home. This is where we would like to be. Nothing else matters. The bare minimum, just give us the words to study. Immerse yourself in the holy goodness. Complete total immersion. How can the Rabbi, the Priest, the Priestess immerse themselves, over lifetimes in the words and worlds of holiness? Because it is worth it. There are gems you will find.

Look at the poor brute now. A man who once had the might of a thousand strong soldier beastly men, now an innocent poor holy soul with no worldly strength. He finds the holiness, the sacredness worth it. Nothing else. Look at him. Watch again if you will, watch his annihilation and metamorphosis into a feeble and humble, innocent soul. Do you think that is a good thing? What if annihilation did not occur? The obliteration and annihilation of that man and his ego is the best possible thing that could have ever happened to him.

Let me tell you, though, that if you live you will make mistakes, you will falter. It is only natural. Our education as we grow is such a sensitive thing. There is a sentiment I have seen that says “I hope you see shocking things”. To me, I interpret such sentiment as to the purpose of fear. Purposeful fear. When I took my driving course as an adolescent, I saw a video that showed the worst case vehicle crash scenarios. The mere memory, years and years after watching that video, brings a fear back to me. A fear that I am thankful for. As I drive, the fear reminds me to be careful. To know your (my) life can be ended in a quick careless moment. This is what education is, in some contexts. It steers us in the right direction. It reminds us of our mortality, our fallibility, our imperfect nature, our vulnerability. Be thankful for purposeful fear, it guides us. That is one of the dilemmas our world has: education. Shall we raise our children scared and fearful to exist? Scared to make mistakes? Scared to live? No we shouldn’t, but with just a little purposeful fear, that will help them avoid tragedies. Our children should be taught to live without fear, fearless – except a small tinge of purposeful fear. There is a fine balance.

Let us return to the Pteronarcys. Submersed under water. The lifecycle is similar in certain ways to a caterpillar. The pteronarcy shall grow wings and fly. How does such quantification occur? Within differing timescale and misaligned lifecycles, can an adult human be considered such as a pteronarcy? Sure, even in it’s immaturity an old human can be considered a young pteronarcy if we deemed him or her so. Why? I can make sense with reasoning. Why can we do this? Because we are human and that is what humans do. We quantify, we label, we reason. It is not extraordinary. What are the boundaries and limits and parameters of our activities? Reason guides us. At some point things may begin making sense to us. All these pteronarcy yard ornaments and I am the pteronarcy. Shall we discuss the connections? How we are connected? How we make those connections, technically? It is not all that far out, to think of the frequency of thought. It is not far out to think that humans are highly intelligent creatures. Some people resort to other explanations, and why judge them as being wrong. Some of the far out explanations are just that, a way to explain our achievements of physics and knowledge and technology that exists, that we have accomplished. The alien conspiracies, the ghost and paranormal explanations. But, in contrary my dear Watson, in contrary, humans are just highly intelligent creatures. Do not judge those searching for ways to explain our modern phenomena, we need to encourage it actually. The search and the hypothesizing. This natural curiosity is a worthwhile effort, even if we are misled or traverse down the wrong path, it is still a way to explain phenomena we do not understand. We don’t need to always be right. It is the effort, the enthusiasm, the journey to discovery. Our explanations are a way to interpret phenomena. We can define our words differently, we can disagree, coming to an ultimate, universal truth is just a paradigm shift away. A quick hop. For your sake, for my sake, for our sake: exercise your brain. Think, and actually try! Consider the possibilities, they are infinite!

I hope I live a long natural life. I hope my death is natural, with a cause of death as “old age”. There are many dimensions of our person, the self. The soul has an age. I think the person, with access to and use of time, might age differently. Time can be consumed without the person knowing, completely unaware that time is passing or passed in one of their blinks of an eye. There is a time accounting system and, apparently, some people have access to time, while other like me (perceptively) don’t and never have had. Sometimes I will look at a person and I immediately know they accessed time. I feel that it is nefarious sometimes, like when a person does something he or she shouldn’t do, and you can sense that on that person. Many times have I looked at people and thought to myself “that person just did something, I can tell”. The visual cognition time is near 300 milliseconds for the brain to comprehend what it sees. Imagine the timescale of one year in one breath, then that compared to near infinity to something comparatively small like a second. Seamless events. An entire dance party concert with thousands of people within a blink of my eye with zero discrepancies as to what before my blink was to after my blink. What or who determines if a person has access to time? There is culturally much work and issues to address. Watch the movie “Birdbox” and substitute the car crashes and violence with a primal Greek sexualized orgy / sex culture. It’s all digital and time is very malleable. Some people are older than they would ever imagine, hundreds and hundreds of years old whom think they are in their fifties.

I love naturalness, I love nature. I am in the forest, at a freshwater stream looking at a strange creature in the water. It is blackish, and strange. It is strange. I would like to look at it. I am scared, I won’t touch it. I won’t kill it. It is strange. It is a pteronarcy. I want to just look at it. I am home, in nature. Nothing else matters. I want to touch it, I want to touch the pteronarcy, but I am scared. What if it bites me or is poisonous. I don’t know what it it but it is strange and beautiful. I want to study it. How does it live? I am home, in nature. The naturalness I love. No chemical anything. No influences anywhere, just nature. Oh I yearn for nature, just natural nature. No chemicals, All natural.

I would like to improve the world. If I had access to time, that is what I would probably do. Just imagine in a blink of an eye, an old vehicle that is broken down gets restored to it’s prime…? The resources, effort, expertise, and the energy one would have to consume to complete that objective. I would if I could. Just think of a rusty old tool left outside under the weather, restored to beautiful newness. Something that had been damaged, restored to functional. Those types of things. If you do so with time, please make sure to ask permission so that it is okay with the vehicle or tool owner. I feel that is one thing that people with access to time neglect and do not understand. There ARE consequences to every action. Every action has a reaction and with the technologies that are in use (lenses, matter teleportation, etc…) you might not know exactly what you are doing or who you are doing that to. We are all sort of blind and we have to work on our communication.

The source of some ideas of the separatist, I hypothesize, is biblical. There is a whole movement, and ethics needs to be our priority. I wish I could avoid discussing such an unsavory subject, but it is what it is. It must have been around the time of the nineteen thirties. Certain regions in Europe had culture “battles”. We can understand why such separatist attitudes were formed. Essentially, certain people tried to define work in a sexualized context, except not through the lens of something illegal, like prostitution. An example of this is the male who does some sexual act with a female and then someone communicating to that man: “good job, your work is done for the day”. This is in contrast to the worker who is righteous and works hard throughout the day doing honest work. The dynamic between the two “workers” is in obvious conflict with each other, and we have to ask about the woman. What is the woman is a wife or girlfriend of the honest worker, and such activity and infidelity is done outside of the honest worker’s awareness. So there is a strong contrast of opposing work ideologies. They say the oldest professions are prostitution, farming, and hunting.

Being the oldest profession, I have an opinion on such a matter. I would like to clarify that I do not endorse prostitution, it is illegal in my city. Regarding pimping: I think that is a hard life to live, and personally, I would not have the emotional strength to handle such a lifestyle (I would probably cry often because I fall in love easily). I am led to believe that the art of pimping has something to do with whose semen is in the woman during the act with another man. I am led to believe that this line of thought is motive for the criminal acts of rape and pedophilia, the man trying to be involved with the woman, through force or coercion and sometimes even at infancy (very wrong). I believe intimacy is best a private, sacred, and special act that you cannot put not price on. If appropriate, intimacy between two people who love each other and who will be there for each other for life is a beautiful expression of love and our humanness. I encourage people to respect women. I believe in a certain layer of reality, in a sexualized culture, there is some sort of economic trade system that exists. That just seems to be how it is, and something I became (slightly) aware of. If I were living in that culture (which I am not) I would take seriously the words of Too $hort when he says “Don’t ever f*ck for free“, and the price would be very high, extremely unaffordable: (In this context) For fun, contemplate a quantity and purchasing power starting at Graham’s Number of Graham’s Numbers of units of the highest leveraged currency in existence per energy expenditure equitable to an angstrom or nano calorie…

So an economical element is added to our scenario. That, I hypothesize is how the working class of Germany got themselves in such debt, from their sexualized actions of the “workers”. The debt was so much of a burden that Germany tried to justify their rapes and tried to transition from legitimate, honest dollars, to a Nordic rape culture economy that did not criminalize the acts of rape. This Nordic rape culture may have roots in Greek and Arab savagery. Is this true? This is my hypothesis.

Let us return to our modern day. How do we use ethics when interacting with an action (rape) that is equitable as unjustified homicide? There are many different lenses to look through when viewing our problem. First off comes the separation of animal and man. This is guided by Jewish ideology, yet I feel that Muslims agree. The human man or person will refrain and use self control and will divert their primal urges. The human will not “give into” his or her or it’s primal instinct and will choose the higher facilities over the lower urges of the body. This is the separation of animal and man, in this ideology. Now we look at our wildlife industries. We, on a quantum level, can connect living beings with living beings. It is almost like superimposing the person, connecting the thoughts, actions, of one person with another person, or literally animal. There seems to be no absolute rule and a lot of forgiveness and play with the concepts and how people are connected. We can do so even with people to insects, and people to inert objects. Yet it remains that if you are human, homosapien, you are considered a person, no matter what you behavior is, in a certain context. This ethical context and perspective could be one way to avoid atrocities. In our modern day, with certain confusion, the human could be treated as an animal. In the medical or military contexts, this would be torture or chemical abuse of a person such as genetic modification, or (for example) mustard gassing the person at work, numbing the human’s body, psychological torture, assaulting the human’s body with triangulated weaponized microwave, etcetera. The human organism is complex. I hypothesize, in our modern day, one relevant area of focus is ethics of human beings classified as animals or separated as animals. I’d imagine this translates directly to the sick and criminal populations, from a particular viewpoint. 

Doing no wrong, laying in my bed, into a deep deep slumber, I was sleeping happily. I was in my bedroom, door closed and locked. My head was to the South and I was on the East side of my room. All of a sudden a remote brain shock discharge shocked me. I awoke in trauma and a panic. I recognized it was a highly precise remote electronic beam discharge. My immediate thought was “what am I doing wrong?”. That was an assault on me as I was happily sleeping, doing no wrong, yet there is much potential in that remote brain shock technique for NON-LETHAL deterrence from atrocious wrongs. I encourage the world to bring this technology into our awareness as a relevant defense technique which doesn’t darken our souls from such things as (defensive) murder. We, of course will need to discuss sane and ethical uses of such a technique / technology.

This entire culture is foreign to America, yet I believe we have adapted with our industries. In America rape is a crime and even in prison, there is zero (no) tolerance for rape. Rape is a crime everywhere, but that culture is, in particular, very foreign to underlying American ideologies. Rape, globally, is such an atrocity, that it is equitable to unjustified homicide. I am led to believe that In our globalized world, an eye for an eye gets near instantaneously manifested. The rape escalates to an unjustified homicide somewhere else. Because of our quantum interconnectedness this reaction may be beyond the individual’s control, acting outside of one’s freewill.

All of this is on the surface… and awareness of this culture should cause awe and shock and psychological trauma (to a certain degree). Separation, to some degree shall be padding and create a buffer zone for the cultural dichotomy, yet humans are dynamic. We cannot separate and leave according to the device of the human organism. We must be resilient in ensuring ethics are practiced “from above” (from those in power or in higher social hierarchical roles). It is human nature to make mistakes and to learn and to adapt and change. Even just changing perspectives, which is a very personal thing that may not be communicated. I would argue, in our age of hyper-individualization, that individual preference is a right, and humans can update their preferences on a mere whim. That is my argument against rigid separation. Humans are dynamic and can learn and can change. Either way, no matter how one is “classified”, every human has a right to real food, real water, real sleep, real shelter, real clothing, real sex (and the right to individual preferences as well as the right to abstinence), real hygiene, the psychological needs of safety and social belonging within their family and social groups.

Matchmaking shall get us closer to connecting people to their preferences, but I am sure comes with it’s fair share of challenges.

The pteronarcy sits in the water, laying completely engulfed. Nutrients and sustenance must come to it. Breathing the water, there must be bits of nutrition that it feeds from. It is not buoyant, but has sunk to the bottom. It’s aura and presence is strong, it is a being, there, in the present, but how can an aura be so strong when it is a simple insect? Does any layer of the “person” of the pteronarcy have emotions or thoughts? A pteronarcy must think, simple if nothing else. It has to have a thought frequency, like all of us do. What would it transmit? Probably a strong drive that provokes it to execute action: “Eat eat eat eat eat, food there, swim, eat eat eat”. Do you think there is a thought process on any level? The pteronacy lays, sunken at the bottom, just there. It is such a strong presence. It is filtering the water, breathing in and out the liquid water.

An exercise: I am a woman and I have not found my mate. I will require a man of fortitude and strength. I will know when I have found him. I hide within the weaponry of the police. Some have called me a slut, but I prefer the term “ethical slut”. I have self interest as a human. I am in power, civilly, politically, socially. I would like to exercise the potency and magnitude of my power. I am but a mere human and corruption is inevitable to those in power. I prepare my serotonin and endorphin nano gasses throughout the world. I prepare my propaganda material to mind control and brainwash the most choice human males into falling in love with me. Latitude and longitude behavioral tracks and mind map downloads complete. I want them all to court me. It shall be insane, because why would so many men, in their primes, court a woman like me!? I’m just a girl. I’ll sequence the DNA of every human male and select that which I would like to target with the pleasure chemicals. Just according to my preferences, I release the propaganda material and nano gasses. It is programmed in. Once they think of me, their heart flutters just a little, ever pleasant thoughts of love flood them with just a slight boost of testosterone to evoke their primal urges. I am here waiting for you. I would like to see which suitor will be there for me in the long term, strength, mental strength and fortitude as well as physical attractiveness are my requirements. Show and tell me why you deserve a woman of my stature and power.