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I, being without a mate or spouse or lover for so long, joke that I wish I had a harem of wives. Of course, practically, I only endorse monogamy. I’ll be very lucky if I ever find a spouse or lover or mate because I am already forty one years old. I have never married, am single, and have not had a lover, even a kiss in over eleven years. I decided at one point to proclaim my born-again-virginship. I am a born-again-virgin. There could be a number of scenarios that apply, and of course some out of the ordinary miracle may occur, too, but all of it seems unlikely. I feel as if I am more than likely never going to meet a mate.
Humans are animals, human beings are animals, yet there is, or can be something that distinguishes the difference between our primal, primordial selves and a higher being. Self control is that distinguisher, yet we are all fallible and no one is perfect. Sexuality, our primal self seems to be the hardest aspect of living to control.
The practicality of monogamy is because I would like to be responsible if I ever bore a seed.
My education level is only up to an associates, I doubt I will ever make the necessary funds to even raise a family. I am an optimist, miracles and unlikely scenarios do happen… yet I feel that I am much more likely to never meet my lover companion. Or if I do meet her, the odds are against me in that some type of actual relationship will form and be built.
The facts: I would not be able to support a family right now, as I am financially poor. I am aging, at 41 years old, so I am over my physical prime and over my highest physical attractiveness.
I feel that it is resorting, becoming in tune with another reality, separated by physics and technology, that I have given consent for any woman who would like to procreate with me my permission to do so. With this consent and permission, it would have to be a very alternative, non-traditional scenario because if I ever bore seed, I would like my seed to have the finest of education so their chances at survival and thriving throughout their lives would be increased. I would also prefer to be married if I procreate, so I could be there for my family. Putting my trust in the ethers of life is a gigantic leap of faith. My mate would have to be in tune with who I am and would need to make up for all I lack so our family will be successful. I would prefer such a thing occurs honestly and in my full awareness, but faith may be the only route to take.
Also, in our modern day, I reserve the right to not know what the actual reality is or what the possibilities are.
There are infinite possibilities.